Stupid for a Reason

I could sit and kick myself for making the decision to move to Missouri. I could say the past 6 months have been a waste, especially after quitting a good job, leaving a boyfriend, leaving my good friends, and relying on the word of someone whose words mean nothing. However, I am moving back and taking my kids with me. I was able to spend the past months, without having to work, with my kids. That is not a waste. And, ultimately, things are going to be so much better. My kids and I need to be back with family in the place where we are all from. It is a new start to a much-needed new, stable life.

Writing about the lies and deceit could be a catharsis, but there is no point crying over spilled milk. Some people are better off alone to live their manipulative ways--and though it is both sad and pathetic, I am glad it isn't me. That is about all I have to say.

I am forging on in many ways. I have realized that I do not want to be attached to anyone in any way: emotional, financial, cohabitational. I have been lied to, used, manipulated in so many ways and by so many people in the past few years. I am just done. I don't want to live with anyone. I NEVER want to get married again. Honestly, I could care less if anyone at all is in my life other than my kids, my mom, and my true friends. My life is now about my children and myself. And that is all that matters.

It's truly sad how enlightenment comes slowly for some people. I feel really sorry for them. Those people know who they are--or they deny who they are, actually. Just glad from now on, I am no longer attached at all and in any way. Drama is so sophomoric and immature. Let those people implode. Life is way too short to stress about the little things. I just want to take an eraser and get rid of it all--that is my plan. And it's a good one.

So, as of the 2nd of July, I will back on home soil. California, here I come. As much as it is fast-paced and crowded and expensive--it will always be my home. California or Bust!!